Spring Break

Somehow Spring break isn't as wild as I remember it. Which...I suppose could possibly be good...but who knows?

Yup, I've had fun, but some people might say I need to get out and socialize more. I've spent all week in my man-cave teaching myself programming by way of installing and reinstalling different OS's. The only problem is the computer itself. I think it needs a new motherchip, it's quite quirky. But I can allow it to be that way because it's an older computer....A whole decade...it's almost half as old as I am! Wow! I've known this computer more than half of my life. How strange to think about...

But when thought about like that, it's no wonder I couldn't just leave it to sit in the basement corner collecting dust. It was calling to me, and now I will keep it alive and healthy for my [simple] purposes. Nothing's simple anymore, but nothing's too complicated.

That which has not been achieved is a challenge! Nothing will deter me or prevent me from accomplishing my dreams. ^_^

-Jerry

Still a chicken

I'm still me. Even though I have become a more sociable person (or so I'd like to think), I'm still me. I'm not sure what I want. I feel I've been getting more serious with this girl, more serious than I had supposed I'd get before I leave, but here I am.

Today, I had an inkling to kiss her. Just one of those thoughts in the back of the mind, but it was there. I don't know if she was waiting for that before doing her homework, but I'm still a coward. I kinda wanted to kiss her, but at the same time, I overanalyze every possible scenario. I guess I'm still afraid of the great unknown.

We keep moving forward

Well, I think I'm making excellent progress. Things are going swell! No more problems have surfaced yet, though I keep waiting for them...Darn pessimistic mindset xD

My philosophy class would think contrary to my title, but I'd care to disagree. We do move forward and we only move forward. Forget paradoxes, they're just an illusion to our imperfect minds. As a wise old shepherd once told me,

"I don't care what you believe, just believe it!" and then all was silent...

But aren't those great words to live by? Everything includes a small smattering of faith. I'm not talking about religion, I'm talking about life. Without faith, you have no purpose, no motivation, no electricity...not even any sunrises! Where's the fun in that??

Progress...anyone?

Progress is...well, I suppose most people would say a step forward. The question is, where do you define a step? How far forward can a step be taken to be considered a step? Do backwards ones count? I'm a person left with questions. Answers aren't exactly a strongsuit of mine. But I do my best.

Well, the last two weeks have certainly been interesting. I stepped out of my comfort zone and took two girls for a walk with me. It wasn't easy, and I'm sure they were confuzzled greatly at first. But after that first awkward moment it all came easier. I still don't know if I want any sort of serious relationship, but I have two girls who I am now more serious than before with.

The big question for me to decide is, if I do decide to get serious, which one would I pick? It's all so confusing to me as well. Ah well, I purpose that I will keep doing what I'm doing. Taking everything in stride and seeing where it takes me.

Let's deaux dis!

chaos

You. You look at your caverns/tunnels and call it a home. I look at 'em and say, "Dang. This is huge! You've had way too much time on your hands."

I look at my world. Chaos and randomness abounds. This is where I feel most at home. You can keep your caverns if you like, I'll stay here with my craters and fire! The first home built with my bear hands is where my base will always remain.

Indecision

Okay. So, I've figured this out about me. I think I know what I want, but when I can have it, my not-caring and indecisive side takes over. Particularly with relationships. I'm no good whatsoever. Lately my head has been thinking I need someething more serious. I had it once, I didn't exactly run away, but I didn't run towards it either. My feet were rooted to the ground, not a clue where to go or what to do. I may be at that spot once again (I'm not sure), but this time I've got to do the work. I can tell that it sure ain't coming for me this time. Maybe once again it'll just slide right on past and I'll slide on down. Guess I'll try taking it one stop at a time again...

-Bob

Return of the Jerri?

Curisoity killed the cat...or so I'd like everyone to believe. A new semester at school, life's average. Sleep sounds good right now. Yeah. We'll see how this goes.