I'm still me. Even though I have become a more sociable person (or so I'd like to think), I'm still me. I'm not sure what I want. I feel I've been getting more serious with this girl, more serious than I had supposed I'd get before I leave, but here I am.
Today, I had an inkling to kiss her. Just one of those thoughts in the back of the mind, but it was there. I don't know if she was waiting for that before doing her homework, but I'm still a coward. I kinda wanted to kiss her, but at the same time, I overanalyze every possible scenario. I guess I'm still afraid of the great unknown.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
We keep moving forward
Well, I think I'm making excellent progress. Things are going swell! No more problems have surfaced yet, though I keep waiting for them...Darn pessimistic mindset xD
My philosophy class would think contrary to my title, but I'd care to disagree. We do move forward and we only move forward. Forget paradoxes, they're just an illusion to our imperfect minds. As a wise old shepherd once told me,
"I don't care what you believe, just believe it!" and then all was silent...
But aren't those great words to live by? Everything includes a small smattering of faith. I'm not talking about religion, I'm talking about life. Without faith, you have no purpose, no motivation, no electricity...not even any sunrises! Where's the fun in that??
My philosophy class would think contrary to my title, but I'd care to disagree. We do move forward and we only move forward. Forget paradoxes, they're just an illusion to our imperfect minds. As a wise old shepherd once told me,
"I don't care what you believe, just believe it!" and then all was silent...
But aren't those great words to live by? Everything includes a small smattering of faith. I'm not talking about religion, I'm talking about life. Without faith, you have no purpose, no motivation, no electricity...not even any sunrises! Where's the fun in that??
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Progress...anyone?
Progress is...well, I suppose most people would say a step forward. The question is, where do you define a step? How far forward can a step be taken to be considered a step? Do backwards ones count? I'm a person left with questions. Answers aren't exactly a strongsuit of mine. But I do my best.
Well, the last two weeks have certainly been interesting. I stepped out of my comfort zone and took two girls for a walk with me. It wasn't easy, and I'm sure they were confuzzled greatly at first. But after that first awkward moment it all came easier. I still don't know if I want any sort of serious relationship, but I have two girls who I am now more serious than before with.
The big question for me to decide is, if I do decide to get serious, which one would I pick? It's all so confusing to me as well. Ah well, I purpose that I will keep doing what I'm doing. Taking everything in stride and seeing where it takes me.
Let's deaux dis!
Well, the last two weeks have certainly been interesting. I stepped out of my comfort zone and took two girls for a walk with me. It wasn't easy, and I'm sure they were confuzzled greatly at first. But after that first awkward moment it all came easier. I still don't know if I want any sort of serious relationship, but I have two girls who I am now more serious than before with.
The big question for me to decide is, if I do decide to get serious, which one would I pick? It's all so confusing to me as well. Ah well, I purpose that I will keep doing what I'm doing. Taking everything in stride and seeing where it takes me.
Let's deaux dis!
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